okay tues was on my B'DAY!!!hahahaha
sorry lack of update but i guess i only do it when i am really pissed off.
okay so~ my birthday was like a normal everyday life as usual.
hahaha. i knw i knw special day usually should be celebrated.
but..the things is..for me a special day like this is never meant to be celebrated
cause i'm not truly accepted in this world. why?
cause my dad, family, my friends, everyone even the person i like doesn't truly accepted me
an i just want to stop living as it is. the only thing that can kind of make the pain go away, believe or not smoking. its like my painkiller. it is one thing that can let me 4get abt all this shit.
even now i feel like smoking.
you always talk abt $$$$$$ i'm sick of it. i clearly need to find a part time job after graduation.
but what? 7/11 maybe?
seriously its not my fucking fault that ur friends is earning more. blame ur fucking boss..
